Sian suddenly want to blog today. I want to express my feelings and thoughts.. As 'O' level is nearing day by day i start to get worried but i just cant get to start working hard.. cant seem to have the thrust to keep me moving. Currently sitting with a female classmate of mine, Hong Xi. Sitting with her was not too bad la but i feel its not good for her la cause whenever she wants to clarify her doubts on certain subjects she will ask me. And the problem is i'm a gonecase man.. Most of the time i could only say" I don't know leh.." or "not sure.." or "bu zhi dao" haiz.. CMI la me feel that its just a disadvantage for her to sit beside me la. =( hmm den i also never take Additional Maths so cant help her or wad just sit there eat air.. i scared i answer wrongly or wad den cause her to make mistakes or wad.. AAAAAAA wadeva at least now i let it all out i feel a bit better.. i feel so useless.. until now i dun really noe wad is my ambition. What i want to do in the future.. i dun wish to make my parents worry about me and i dun really want to rely on them for i want them to be happy.. yet i could not show them good results.. wad is my talent? can someone tell me? really feel damn useless.. I am just so fking lazy.. lazy in work but play i forever not lazy.. especially com.. i really com addict le la.. though i dun use for games nowadays but i just dunno why time seems to fly when i on the com.. what's life without happiness.. everyday in school i will laugh and smile at friends' jokes or wad but yet its a diff type of laugh and smile.. its laughter with a lil bit of worriedness? worried bout results for prelim and 'O' haiz.. blog till here i felt better le =|