blog..just logout from audi. hmm had fun playing with my audi wife, dance_21 haha. It was quite a tough day for me. was worried almost the whole day bout meeting her up.. i dunno why now i fear to meet her le since the last time we met. phobia? i dunno. when will i overcome it? god knows ask god. or maybe since we met in the cyber world we should just remain as cyber friends/couple? maybe it was wrong for me to get her number in the first place? i'm not sure. i do not wish to disappoint myself again.. i do not have the courage to meet her. so i cancelled the meeting, went to toilet teared a bit(cause dowan let them noe i cry) and watch ping pong, play game. after that went to 天国佛堂 den received her msg ask me to chat with her when i reach home. so excitedly(dun really know is excitement or wad la just feel like getting home fast) went back home after the session ended. hmm den chatted a while, rmb she said i blog a lot of words haha maybe cause all these words are always stored in my heart and not shared. i feel very lousy while chatting as i sense she's trying hard to keep the conversation alive. all i could do is reply little bit little bit and dunno wad to do le. *sigh* feel like asking her to stop doing that because i wan her to be herself and seeing her like this makes me feel bad.. especially after we broke up. instead, she should hate me lor. thanks roxanne.. thanks for caring for me even till now. i love you >< right now i'm going to install and try silent hill 4 : the room~ saw the gameplay and videos on youtube.. quite scary sia later i have nightmare lolz.. wish myself luck!