phew just completed my ideas sketching with colors.. shag.. today never play audition. just logined a while but nvr play. hope she's having fun with the rest? msg her also no reply =( is it she dun love me le? =( does anyone understand wad i'm feeling now?? i feel as if nobody cares if i'm living or not. i feel invisible.. i dun feel loved. Was starting it a wrong decision? did i deprive her of her freedom, making her unavailable to others? wo bu zhi dao. wo jue de ta dui wo yi jing no feel le. maybe cause i really do suck so much.

i miss the days when she still made me feel loved.. now there's like a gap
Her_________________________________________Me
and its widening.. i dunno how to save this.. i want to but i feel so hopeless ='( nobody knows how sad i am. plus the lonliness i feel..

zzz i cried as if i'm a baby.. so disgraceful and shameful but my tears just flow out as my heart aches. i shall cry myself to sleep and pretend everything's ok tmr. i appear strong but i'm fragile.. pls numb my feelings somebody.. if only i sleep and nvr see tmr's sun.