having mechanics test tmr~ as usual, my style, my pattern, not yet study.. thinking tmr den study.. the last mechanics test i pon ten and took retest 50/100 now this test.. i dunno.. haven been doing my tutorials and revision. during lecture also blur.. somehow i still very relax now. i going to watch toradora! and naruto after i post.

didnt had a good weekend ba.. ytd many of my mother-side relatives came my house for lunch and dinner. before they came my mum was like super @$%~!!$# keep nagging nagging den ask me do uneccessary stuffs -.- den when i ask more she attitude me.. or ignore me. den i also ignore her lo, pull a long black face. somemore got this little boy come my hse keep wreaking havoc la.. make me angry and as i scold him he even more naughty. wtf.. i tio owned by a small boy.. den i felt really terrible.. looked out of the window, put my arms out.. i was thinking : jump down jiu wont feel anything le. i telling myself it will be fast. really felt like jumping. but i walked off after that. den after tat cousins came, eat, play com bla bla. night, went home left one cousin playing left 4 dead. den this morning went to xin chun da tuan bai.. my religion de some youth group activity. watched a video showing the history of this youth group thing from 1994 till today. as i watched, dunno why but i felt like tearing but i held it in. its not because of the content. instead it was the music they used.. dunno why i just felt miserable and recalled the past.

feel so ZZZ la.. last time i will nvr shed tear easily de.. even watch those touching show with family only saw mother tearing. den mother still said i was heartless so i nvr shed any tears or felt anything. now i will just shed tears when i see touching shows/movies especially those with sad music -.- ppl become stronger after every fall but i felt weaker leh. become cry baby le. 17 year old.. freak la.. dammit man.. ok i go watch my anime le. all the best for tmr de test gui ming..