im tired, shag, exhausted, weary, fatigued, enervated and collapsing. almost had my first faint in my 17+ years of life.. it just blacked out for that second but im strong.. i really am. had another boring, lonely and emo day. im all alone even though so many people are around me. dun get it? nvm. just screw it. im used to it. but im not numb. i still have a human heart, i still feel. im not some vegetable or living dead man. to ppl i may be a living dead ba. always acting cool and bla bla bla. nah i shouldnt be blaming ppl. im borned a weird child, a child so different. i have nth to say. just leave me alone. i wanna stay in my own 4 sided walls. i guess im too tired tats why crapping. dun bother. tmr is the start of my poly year 2 semester one. i dunno wad im going to expect. i really dont. pls just let me have some peace will do and finish this path. i am not happy. i ain't. but ill be a pretender till i do not have to.