lol got sun burnt =X sorry dear.. my bad i knew u dun like to go under the sun but i still made u walked so much under the sun.. really sorry.. im stupid.

i also dunno why but it just didnt felt right at all to me, today's secret date with her.. i feel like im a very 失败 boyfriend to have.. she kept denying but i just cant ignore this fact? that im a boring person. and i keep thinking of the dreadful day where we'll part.. dunno how to describe this feeling. ur hands.. ur touch.. ur smile.. u.. everything.. i just hope time stops.. but even if it stops, something is not right. i dunno wad is it.. i really dont.. its.. tough.. its like u noe its not going to happen yet u dowan to let go now but to hold on till the time is up..

wad should i do.. and i noe the start of poly 2nd year isnt going to be as slacky as 1st year already.. the books, notes, syllabus really require lots of understanding and to understand = more time.. i got the darn cca and stupid freaking customer service shit on wednesday.. have this tutoring thing on sunday.. sometimes in the night or noon need go pray.. im really busy.. i scared i cant cope with so many things.. i cant multi-task and i need rest.. i am human, not machine/robot.. year 3 is going to be even more busy i suppose.. how.. i dun wish to neglect u dear.. im so lost so lost.. a useless bum,me

i wonder when we'll meet again.. i dun have tat confidence already.. im feeling weak.. i dowan to bore u.. my heart aches.. even on phone calls... the silence.. just doesnt feels right.. couples burn like flame at the beginning but slowly the flame becomes like the fire of burning charcoals? is this situation now like the fire of the glowing hot charcoals? i dun think it is... more like the flame is going off.. dun think anyone will be able to help.. im just me.. wad can i do..

i love you, but..