shit man i dunno wads happening to me. im having a series of moodswings recently.. haiz. sorry dear i know my moodswings affected you. today after messaging u during lunch, i stared at the last msg for like few mins? dunno why but i'm feeling demoralised, even more insecure after msging u. ytd in the noon when we messaged u said u wanna spend the rest of ur life with me, i'm so happy to see that and i can tell you truthfully i also want to. and today u said u dun think u will get married in future, let fate decide? somehow seeing those makes my heart sank... is it cause u have no confidence in yourself, in me, in our relationship, or is it all? i have no idea how to boost that confidence for you and me.. i'm also feeling afraid and lack of confidence. i am just waiting for wednesday to arrive and hope we'll both feel more confident? just messaged u and i can feel tat you're not feeling good too.. you still ask me dun moodswing, bad for health.. but wad about you dear? u said ur life filled with darkness.. seriously i was affected by that once again.. i remembered u told me the same thing before and i thought u found ur light, me, after i confessed to you tat night. yet today ure telling me this again. does it mean i was nvr ur light at all? or is it my light is burned out like those sparkles ppl play with during new year, mooncake festival? i dowan to burn out baby. i wanna be ur light forever.. wednesday faster come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!