The sun rise seen from my kitchen on wednesday morning.. from the eyes it looks very red and beautiful. but from the camera it just looks like an atomic mushroom? lol..

just woke up. haiz school is starting liao on monday. a little stress liao although haven start and its poly. stress i cant cope stress seeing those irritating classmates stress get lousy lecturers stress~~~ *white hair =X haha no la not so stress.. just big cannon. -.-

somehow im feeling a little discouraged after wad my mother said - "这样子你哪里配得上她?" i just remained silent and walked away.. am i trying to hang on to something which isn't going to work out in the end? i very lost now. my mum's words kept repeating in my mind leh. its like brainwashing me? i'm scared i will let go eventually.. give me strength! roar.. but i will hang on.. i will do the things i promised after her o levels. and then will see how..

suddenly im very negative again. i feel so lousy and useless. 我不配? why is it that others can cheer their gf when they're sad while i cant.. im like not helping or making it worst only leh. i found out that since she is with me, its like she has become more negative liao. my influence i guess.. i am ruining her? i really hate to see her so pessimistic.. she wasn't like this before.. 总觉得自己很没用.. i cried but crying doesn't dissolves my confusion and negativeness at all.....

your beauty, i'm not worthy.