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Woke up at around 12.30pm but was still lying on my bed surfing facebook on my phone till around 1.30pm. Last night i forgot what time i went to sleep already thanks to the beers i had. And as I was opening the first bottle, I asked myself "why am i drinking?" And i couldn't answer this question other than "because i still have many bottles of it, if i dun drink em now, then when?" lol! And after a couple of beers i start to let my mind go wild. Wild as in anyhow think. And i kinda found the answer to that question. I like this feeling of being "wild", not giving any fucks about anything, anyone. I'm just me. A man with regrets trying to move on. And after i'm drunk, i just go to bed and wake up to another day.
And I also realised something! Its like after i get drunk and sleep i usually have dreams. I guess science kicks in now. When you consume alcohol, yes you fall asleep, however it's bad for your brain because your brain is still working and thats why I have dreams. Regarding the dream, i had forgotten what it was now.. haha.. but i'm quite sure "she" didnt appear in this dream.
Back to yesterday night.. I did laundry, changed bedsheets, practiced piano, skipped dinner and i did not really do the videos which i said i was going to do. I was browsing youtube trying to find the perfect music which i can use to work on the video. So i spent quite long on that and then i realised the videos i took during that trip when i tried to open em there is some error and theres no video, only audio. So i was thinking shit.. all gone.. but i thought maybe i should try scanning the hard drive and trying to fix any errors and so i did. while it was doing the scan which took quite a while due to the size of the hard disk, i went online in audition to play for a while. Thats where i started drinking too..
And memories started coming back to me. It's where it all begins.. where i got to knew "her" and then together.. and I was thinking to myself too.. "how long more are you going to play this game? I'm already turning 23." I dunno the answer to that lol. but i know that I'm kinda playing it because I'm bored and i love music and this is a music game which I dun suck at and also not good at. And i can observe people communicate, feel less lonely. And i think there is no age limits to games, even if you are 70 years old if you still can play it, why not? haha. Not saying i will but see how.. I also wish i can catch up with all the technological advancements and still be tech savy as a old man. And as i was playing drunkly (LOL) i started to think about maplestory.. I dunno why but i think it's just me being "young" in the heart haha! and it's kinda easy to play, you do quests, fight monsters, hunt for items, level up. But hopefully if i do play it someday i dun get stucked onto it because it can get really addictive especially for me haha.
Oh ya! i started reading The Fault In Our Stars (TFIOS)! i see lots of english words which i do not know the meaning LOL! but of course mostly i still can understand. And so chapter 1 was pretty nice i feel that i can just continue reading and reading. It wasnt a bad experience at least. I wasnt falling asleep or finding it boring. So whenever I'm free i will continue reading it =D anyway a cool word i learnt is "harmatia" it means fatal flaw.
For now I'm gonna take a shower and then go over to a colleague's house to polish boots together. Most probably sharing some tips and skills on polishing too. After that i will proceed home and i'll work on my piano again and also video, and cook for dinner and lunch tmr, iron my clothes and i really hope i can sleep earlier tonight because i'm working morning shift tmr and i think my body clock is still in the "OWL" mode T-T please.. let me be tired and sleep early..
"sometimes when life feels like it's ending, Iit's actually just beginning"
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