wah stress ar..~ have to prove that they're right. maybe a worm will always remain a worm and not change to butterfly no matter how hard the worm wish it was a caterpillar or believe it is one.. hmm today morning overslept so never go for 8am de lecture.. but it was a blessing in disguise ba because i heard there was no lecture. so i was lucky la =) woke up at 8am++ den ate breakfast liao jiu go take bus to sch. listen 98.7fm am mayhem during the whole bus ride. funny Djs always make me smile on the bus dunno got ppl see or not. later tot i siao. anyway was late by 20mins like that la dunno why the bus so slow.. so went in carrying my car box.. the teacher ask me i bring bomb ar? -.- told him many times is car inside le.. maybe cause one week only see him once ba so he also old le easy forget so cannot blame. after that end at around 11am++ so went to foodcourt 6 with 3 friends.. i only bought two curry puffs from the vegetarian stall to eat as i was not that hungry ma just had breakfast a while ago. after that went to 2nd floor above foodcourt 6 see see. cause a friend heard there is a place selling ipod? went up got see a shop but not open. so after that i went to my club room to drift.. after that went home den use com. a good friend recommended this http://dagobah.biz/flash/Cursor_Invisible.swf to me i play play play play i think i crazy le cant stop den play till got 288 try breaking it ba haha den received her message informing me bout the e-mail she sent. i didn't check my inbox so i didn't know she sent an e-mail. so i tried to open inbox to see but couldn't need to restart my modem. so i restarted and read.. so thats the reason for her not uploading the picture we took together.. =( like that might as well be normal friends so no need worry le ma.. at least now we are normal friends so no need to worry le =) i still think its best we dun sms each other that much even as good friends. i still have phobia of making her bored even if she say she's not. i dunno how i'm going to overcome this.. may take me some time or maybe forever. i'm not really confident in becoming a butterfly..... i really have to thank her for giving me so much encouragement especially the period when i'm working at toys r us. without her i wont get motivated sometimes. i sincerely thank her. i still need those encouragements but i guess i'll just have to encourage myself now. i cant accept her encouragement for the time being i dunno why.. because i feel that she should not do this now that we're normal friends. sorry i just couldn't accept it. you should not love me anymore seriously.. i cant take it.. i cant.. i still find it hard to express my feelings while replying her messages.. i feel like i'm a snail/tortoise which hides in the shell.. i feel i feel i feel all is i feel all i noe is me myself and i.. i'm selfish. i never think of others. even if i could restart this life i may still be like this. maybe to open up would mean death like snail or tortoise.. but i wont suicide la.. i will wait till my time has come de.